Like most good stories these days, I reached out to the internet community in search for a Make up artist who would like to build their portfolio and collaborate in creating glamour portraits. I didn't get an overwhelming response. Instead I found a lot of very good and creative makeup artist who wanted to do something new, but were too afraid to do it.

They were shy and unsure. They were crafted but not seasoned. They were willing but not able as they couldn't get over the fear that they were passionate but just not good enough. In my situation, I never asked if they were good enough. This was not a job interview nor a competition of skills. I was giving young talent a place and environment to practice, to learn and make mistakes. But that was all too much responsibility, cause the fear of failure, scared them so much that even trying would be the end of them.

Is this some kind of petrified fear? So scared that you won't even try and so scared you can not even be. Who knew looking for a make up artist would be such an emotionally involved circumstance. I didn't want to get messages of how they would love to help and create but were too scared to try. I sincerely couldn't help anyone with that. Because there is one thing that I have learned in my career as a creative. If you don't have the balls... you are just not going to make it. You are just one person doing a skill that several thousands can do and that they can do even better than you. So what! Just do your thing and do it good. Nobody care that it is the best, or the best in the world, they just care if it is the best of you.

Self doubting yourself is a disease that eats away on your dreams and digs holes in your future. It feeds on your fears and loneliness, until you are truly lonely and sad. Sad, that you never did it. Sad, you never tried. Sad that you were never good enough and never tried to see how good you were. We are all born with some kind of skill. You don't become amazing over night. It takes time and work to craft your skill. So much so that you create in a way that is only identifiable, as your work. Isn't that worth looking forward to.

So I salute Ania, my first make up artist who helped me build my portfolio. Who struggled with her own work-worth but manage to create either way. I don't know if she ever continued to persue her dreams as a wedding make up artist, I don't know if she ever went that extra mile for her self. But she did create and she did learn and she did mistakes. But nobody cares, cause you are ever as good as your last work... or until you die.

So make your life spectacular.

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